Alone in the desert (continued)

I am a never married 53 year old white male born and lived much of my life in Warren, Ohio. Since my childhood, I have suffered clinical depression. (runs in the family) It has affected most of my life.

Back in 1975, I went and saw my first counselor. I guess that's when I took a look at being a male counselor myself! Why have my relationships ended?

1. My clinical depression
2. Trying to find a healthy woman in this desert!
3. I have been poor much of my life. (women don't like that)
4. Many women can't accept my mental illness of depression. (i.e., oh, you really don't need to take medication for your depression?) In other words, not accepting the WHOLE ME!
5. Expections from my ex-girlfriends (would you like to have kids?) that came out of nowhere.

[Is there] someone in the past that I wish I had held onto? No. All of the women in my past have been emotionally unhealthy. I have spent many years in my own therapy (thousands of dollars) to get to the place where I am now. I am not about to compromise my recovery with a woman who has no recovery, or knows what I am even talking about.

This has made dating very difficult, especially in the rural area I live in. Yes, I would like to get married someday, but right now, I see no light at the end of the tunnel! Buy the way, I am a Licensed Professsional Counselor in New Mexcio, and trying to start a men's group along the lines of Dr. Warren Farrell. (my mentor).

Thanks for reading. God Bless You! Bill.